Thursday, December 30, 2010

Dating Dilemma - Letting Him Down

I suppose that it was bound to happen eventually. A nice, fun guy is finally really into me, and I am not that into him.

I've gone out three times with B, and he really is a cool guy and I do enjoy being around him. With that said, I'm just not feeling the chemistry. Date #1 was conversation over drinks, then we headed over to karaoke. We even did a suicide round where he picked a song for me and I picked one for him. So enjoyable, but not really into him.

Date #2 was watching movies and TV at his place. It was nice enough, bantering over the finer points of South Park and catching the discrepancies in Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom. Unfortunately, there was no spark on my end. He leaned in for a kiss, and wow...nothing.

Since he is such a cool guy, I wanted to try one last time. Date #3 we went out for dinner, walked around the mall for a bit while dinner digested, then went to see a movie. Once again, it was all quite pleasant. However (and this is a BIG however), at one point during the movie, I had kinda zoned out and just seeing him next to me thought that it was a male relative. The fact is, he reminds me of one of my relatives a bit too much. Kissing him at the end of the night was a bit uncomfortable, but I don't think he picked up on it.

I don't really enjoy being on either side of the "dumping" (though it's not really dumping since we aren't in a relationship). I've been hurt when guys have ended things, and I certainly don't want to add to the number of wounded hearts in this world. At this point, I'm not sure how to end things in a kind and caring manner. I don't want to lead him on at all, and I know he wasn't looking for new friends.

Sigh. Does dating ever get easier?

Your favorite dating disaster,


Friday, December 24, 2010

Christmas playlist

For those unfortunate souls that have no sense of time and are confused as to what a calendar is, today is Christmas eve. It is the night before we celebrate the birth of the one who came as an atoning sacrifice for all the badness and evil both in our hearts and in our deeds. Christmas has become commercialized over the years, and its celebration is no longer just for the faithful. Those of other religions accept it almost as their own.

One of my favorite aspects of Christmas is the music. I can turn on the radio and hear the sweet words of Nat King Cole and Bing Crosby reminding me how lovely this season truly is. However, there are times that I need to move beyond the classics and listen to Christmas music that doesn't get as much airtime or that you don't hear quite as often.

Thus, my Christmas playlist!

1. "Celebrate the Day" - Relient K
2. "Do They Know it's Christmas" - Band Aid (1984)
3. "Santa Baby" - Eartha Kitt
4. "Mary's Boy Child" - Boney M
5. "It's Christmas Time" - City on a Hill
6. "Punk Rawk Christmas" - MxPx
7. "Breath of Heaven" - Amy Grant
8. "Six White Boomers" - Rolf Harris
9. "Little Drummer Boy" - Jars of Clay
10. "Christmas is All in the Heart" - Steven Curtis Chapman
11. "I'm Getting Nuttin For Christmas" - Relient K
12. "Oh Santa" - Mariah Carey
13. "My Christmas List" - Simple Plan

...and this list would not be complete without one of my new favorites:

Merry Christmas!


Thursday, December 16, 2010

Dating is hard!

When you feel that "click" with someone, that mutual attraction and butterflies begin to fill your stomach, you think that it's all sunshine and roses, right? Well, sometimes dating doesn't go like that. Sometimes along the journey you take a few wrong turns, get bad directions, and feel a few rocks in your shoe.

The last two guys I went out with were very different. The first guy came on to me pretty hard, and my goodness was he hot! This is not subjective, he was in fact so universally attractive that he was chosen for the local firemens' calendar. Unfortunately, things did not go well with him and his personality never really matched his looks.

Guy #2 was cute and sweet. We went out several times, and it definitely seemed like things were going somewhere. It has now been 4 days since I last heard from him.

So, back to my point: dating is hard! First semester of my sophomore year of college, I was in a difficult, while perhaps a bit enviable position. Two guys wanted to date me. I didn't really care to be in that sort of situation, and I floundered a bit before choosing. In the end, neither were the right one for me.

Dating situations and circumstances change along the way, but all in all I am still single. I go back and forth on what could be so horribly wrong with me that no one wants me. Am I truly unlovable?

I wish that I knew what I've been doing wrong or what I could possibly do differently. But then there is something to be said for the life experiences gained on this bumpy road of dating

Yours with love,